Farewell, 2015

Dec 31, 2015

This end-of-the-year is awesome because I am seeing so much positivity on my social media timelines. Goals, resolutions, reflections. More inspiration and motivation than I have seen in previous years (like people who talk down anyone who set a goal for the upcoming year- ridiculous). Maybe times are changing, or maybe I have just accepted better people in my life. As for me, 2015 was life changing. Getting married, having a child... 2 circumstances, statuses, that will forevermore add to who I am. In 2016, I look forward to figuring out more of who I am. I have yet so much to learn. Learning is incredibly thrilling to me and I look forward to receiving all the lessons 2016 has in store for me. A major lesson of 2015 was that we aren't here forever. Something I have always known, but have never necessarily felt. Its easy to live within the terms of a daily basis, forgetful of the little things, and sometimes taking x, y, and z for granted. However this lesson struck me when I lost my beloved uncle in November. It is scary. Although I am of Christian faith and shouldn't "be afraid of death", it sends chills down my spine. Not knowing whats on the other side, and to those we have lost, simply not ever seeing, hearing, or holding them physically again. Its really something.

Being an adult has never felt realer. My husband and I moved into our first place, and began the journey of raising a tiny human. So far, it has gone incredibly well. Our son is our fuel and I really can't imagine life without him.

I want to wish you all a safe end-of-the-year and a hope and desire to move forward from what ever circumstance hindered you this year. Take the reality of a new beginning literally. Don't just let tomorrow, Jan 1st, be another day. Do some thinking, some relaxing, some reflection. Set yourself to make any adjustment necessary to improve your peace of mind and lifestyle. Take care of yourself first so that you can be available to help and care for another. Spread positivity and love. Life is but a glimpse. Live within the means of gratitude and give thanks to welcoming another year.

"Any day above ground is a good day." - Scarface


Life Update 2015

Dec 10, 2015

There has been some silence here in the past 2 weeks or so. I have experienced some incredible highs and unexpected lows. With these have came a time of stillness, and almost a lost of direction as I have been pulled in many avenues. The past few nights all I could think about is blogging and how I could come back. Let's start with that! I've had so much I want to express and so many ideas I want to execute, but I have been struggling with finding a balance with this (my favorite hobby) and my personal life. I have been planning strategically for 2016 and hope to publish a posting schedule when the end of the year is near. I really do look forward that. 

My low

On the night of November 17th, my uncle was murdered. Never in my life did I think I would utter such words. If you follow me on Instagram, which I use to post personal musings as well as use it as an extension of this blog, then you've read this disturbing news already. My thoughts and feelings on this circumstance are incredibly heavy, and I really can't think of it without crying. It has weighed me down tremendously and I would say its been a cause for some of my absence. When something this tragic occurs closely to you, it has the power to shift your perspective. My ability to do as I say has been affected by troublesome sadness and laziness to an extend. I need time to heal and I can't put a measure on how long this may take. I wish to continue blogging, and I will, its just every other second in my personal life feels like a setting sun. Its hard to be creative and execute visions and plans when the shadows of life dim everything around you. 

My high

On December 1st, I married my high school sweetheart and loyal best friend, who I have referred to as my boyfriend for the past 7+ years. We were set on marrying the 1st of December, so it wasn't anything I could alter revolving my uncles passing. The last thing I wanted to do was "party", and my sweet husband (its amazing to call him "my husband" here on the blog for the first time!) was understanding of that. We did have an intimately beautiful wedding, celebrating our union with a count of about 15 people. I have incredibly beautiful pictures to share in blog post  (as soon as I get them together). The day was everything I dreamed of for a small wedding. I loved my dress, my bouquet, my photos, and most of all the person who I vowed to spend the rest of my life with. Having our son share this special day with us had us at lost for words. I have been enjoying my days as a new wife with as much peace as possible. 
It feels so good to let these two life events out. I dreaded updating you on the first one, but I'm so thankful for the second one. We look forward to this new year and the blessings it has for us. 

I would appreciate your prayers for this tough time and so will my family.
© Gentle Maven.